Lately I have been unsuccessful in understanding my state of mind or my mood swings. But one thing that happens is that instead of expressing I swallow the turmoil that is going on inside.
It’s very hard to express when no one understands or when you don’t know what to express.
Expression has their interpretations and when people around you are so judgmental it becomes even harder to express.
People chatter, blabber and preach, but they are not really expressing themselves they are just accommodating to their environment, trying to catch attention, trying to make an impression, trying to market their likes, their thoughts, themselves, striving to make impressions.
I sometimes wonder where are we going with all this chattering blabbering and preaching, no where?
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Venting out
One morning I wake up fresh and happy, pleased in my mind, this happens very rarely. I get ready and set out on the 45 mins journey to work. I climb down my stairs and walk till the main road and as soon as it was the red signal I started walking on the zebra crossing to get to the other side of the road.
In the middle of all this rush a man appears right in front, almost bumps into me and whispers a very offending hindi slang that means “fat ass”. All the please and peace in my mind vanishes in that very fraction of second but my face remains calm and I pretend as if nothing happened and I have never heard what was said. But my mind was baffled and was constantly thinking I should have pulled that man’s hair and kicked him in the crotch, or I should have beaten his nose bloody or shove a six inch diameter steel rod up his ass. I could not stop myself from getting upset.
Any way this is just a small incidence, there are many small and big incidence happening daily around the globe with hundreds and thousands of women and girls. I don’t understand what pleasure one gets after doing this kind of a thing. Is he trying to prove his masculinity? Is his ego more satisfied? He does this because he is insecure and feels inferior? I don’t really understand.
I don’t walk around and sexually harass a man with verbal abuse. I have not seen or heard any girl doing that. Why don’t people mind their own business? Why is there so much of disrespect inculcated for women?
My perfect start of the day was ruined. But I decided to write a post to vent the anger out.
This is not the end, I ask all the men….what would u have done if u were me?
In the middle of all this rush a man appears right in front, almost bumps into me and whispers a very offending hindi slang that means “fat ass”. All the please and peace in my mind vanishes in that very fraction of second but my face remains calm and I pretend as if nothing happened and I have never heard what was said. But my mind was baffled and was constantly thinking I should have pulled that man’s hair and kicked him in the crotch, or I should have beaten his nose bloody or shove a six inch diameter steel rod up his ass. I could not stop myself from getting upset.
Any way this is just a small incidence, there are many small and big incidence happening daily around the globe with hundreds and thousands of women and girls. I don’t understand what pleasure one gets after doing this kind of a thing. Is he trying to prove his masculinity? Is his ego more satisfied? He does this because he is insecure and feels inferior? I don’t really understand.
I don’t walk around and sexually harass a man with verbal abuse. I have not seen or heard any girl doing that. Why don’t people mind their own business? Why is there so much of disrespect inculcated for women?
My perfect start of the day was ruined. But I decided to write a post to vent the anger out.
This is not the end, I ask all the men….what would u have done if u were me?
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